I read it in 4 days (which, given my still fairly limited knowledge of the language, was laborious) and many things fell into place. I was so focussed on getting a job, that I was willing to neglect my own principles, beliefs and feelings. This book reminded me of the things I had learned in my previous years there and explained many more. I was again about to start working for a company that stands for everything I detest today; consumersociety in a huge way!! The relentless buying-, selling- and consumingmachinery.
So this rejection might actually turn out to be a blessing in disguise.... It will not require a complete disregard of everything I believe in and stand for, but on the other hand is the pressure building and my selfesteem and good faith are suffering. By the way; people with an interest in this company, either as employees or as customers, should read this book. I wholeheartedly recommend it! To me it made it clear I'll never work there again.....
We get to see a lot of wildlife these days. For instance last week, as I was chatting with the weekend woodsman a male deer paraded by the kitchenwindow. A large (for a deer) reddishbrown, healthy 6-pointer. We also regularly see an ormvråk being bullied by a couple of ravens and magpies at the same time! And if he is unlucky, some gulls will take over from them. What a stressed out bird of prey that must be! Last week, as we sat on the steps in front of frontdoor we saw one of the foxes running by, gracefully hopping from one rock to the next with a bundle of black dangling in its mouth. We see plenty of hares (I am always amazed at their size!) running around the yard and horsemeadow and another smaller, but more beefy and furry, fox too. Many birdcouples have chosen to nest in the nesthouses all through our garden and they are busy too.
I also had my final scoutcamp. Even allthough I allready announced my leave as a scoutleader, I had promissed to participate earlier and offcourse I kept that promiss. At first I had said yes to going along from saturdaymorning untill sundayevening, because someone had to take care of our youngest daughter, while my wife would be working. I also agreed to take one of the other assistants to give her a ride home that evening. As it turned out later there was no need for me to drive home on sunday. My wife was diagnosed with probable rheumatic arthritis in her hands, so she's home on sickleave now and the assistant found a summerjob, so wasn't coming to camp. The weatherforecast said good and sunny weather on saturday, a downright miserable and wet sunday and mixed weather on monday and tuesday, but with plenty of rain.
We did get rain, but not nearly as much as forecasted and mainly at night or in the early morning.
I had some wonderfull experiences and lessons, but during the weekend the reasons for me quiting became painfully clear again, so I did end up driving home on sundaynight..... and not alone. Seperately from my decision, my son had had enough and wanted to go home. Even after he told me this and I told him to think it over, he remained 100% sure... And pretty much for the same reasons. The cultural differences regarding religion, attitude and the total lack of real, outdoorsy scoutingactivities are too profound.
After that it was time to erect our living- and eatingarea. Again the expected weather meant some extra work and effort, but we did good! It all looks complicated, but is relatively easy to build..... once you know what you need to do.
I also got to try out some new things, like a grassfilled pillow.... which was not a succes. The grass compacted quickly, leaving me with an item under my head, really resembling a wooden block!
And tonight, as I am writing this, we introduced a new "familytradition"; the kvällsdopp or eveningdipp.
|The water is chrystalclear....|
Unfortunately that reveals some of the problems this country faces too.
There is this wonderfull bathingsite at a lake very near to home. Yesterday afternoon we went there and it was a strange sensation to be swimming for the first time in more then 20 years! If the only thing you know is a manmade, fully controlled 10x25 meter, bluetiled swimmingbasin, it is a almost miraculous thing! This sense of freedom you get when being in the water, surrounded by fish, plants, trees......
And tonight that was topped by the most perfect eveningswim one can have.
And now, enjoying a handground and -made cup of coffee, while digesting some homemade rhubarbpie, served with chocolatechipped icecream and vanillawhippedcream, I can only say;"Life is good!!!"
Tomorrow we will be celebrating the traditional midsommar, heralding the arrival of summer.
I wish you all a great summer, filled with the same feeling of joy and wonder I experienced tonight!!